September♥

Its September now.. Ending of 2010.. Time flies.. I felt that i wasted the whole year.. I did nothing good for myself for the damn 9 months.. All i did is just lepak around and waste money.. Im bloody useless.. Before this i always say that my dad was useless,but now i realise me myself is just the same.. I wanna make a change,but where do i start? and how do i start? I have no idea.. awwww.. confuse..

Im better when im loving myself rather than suffering when im loving you♥

Who's that girl?♥

Recently i met someone.. quite unique,quite special in lots a way.. She's funny,outgoin,cheerful,DDY xD, and lots more..haha xD.. I kinda felt some chemistry between us.. Its like some connection.. Its kinda hard to describe.. Well who know's? maybe God wanted me to meet her? haha.. I hope so? heees.. Well hopefully i get to meet her soon,then we shall know in the future whether she's the right one or what.. Dont wanna put too much hope on it.. Cause im scared.. Anyways im happy =) hees God Bless♥

Nigel Lee Soon Phin♥

Its kinda harsh for me cause my Blood Brother went to china yesterday.. He's goin there for quite a long time.. till end of this year maybe.. We had a farewell for him the day before he went off.. Im really sad cause he had leave us.. We spend almost everytime together.. We had our up's and down's together.. He was the best brother that i ever had and will have.. He always was the first bro to help me when im in trouble.. I hope he's okay there.. Hope he will take good care of himself.. Hopefully he will come back soon.. Take care Bro Nigel.. Take care.. I love you bro.. thanks for everything.. Cheers =) God Bless You.. Blood Brothers Forever♥

Im done with her xD

Good news..after talking to her face to face yesterday..I felt something different about her..and the feeling started to go off.. haha.. im happy with it.. Why should i suffer for the person who does't care.. right? totally.. Well she's not that perfect after all.. Thanks God for giving me a new life.. and im glad for everything God gave me.. God know whats best for me.. She's totally outta my life.. wooohooo .. Newborn Cheedi/Rashidi.. hees.. God Bless♥

Life is simple♥

Well life is simple.. If we win,we win.. If we lose,we lose.. thats all.. Dont need to add bullshit into it to make it complicated.. As for you, If you are not mine, then you are not.. You are outta my life.. Im gonna get rid of you from my mind.. I will wait till the right one comes.. =)

Me Without You♥

In all my dreams
I never imagined me without you.
I wandered through my life
and I would always see you.
I counted on your timing
your smile
you caught my soul
and found me off guard.
Must you still lean on my soul?
. Pull my insides
'til I lose all control?
and then...
take what becomes a prize to me
and leave me so alone?

Such an expense I paid
finding me without you.
I am off balance
I can hardly breath.
I never included the outcome
of your leaving...
leaving me without you.
I am a broken container.
I bare no excuse.
I cannot stand on my feet
nor hide my despair.
I am the tear in my own eye.
nowhere to start again
no step to begin.
The smell of emptiness
is a smell I cannot bare
a room so vacant.
I loath myself
that I should fall apart so.
As if you were the only person
to verify my breathing
the only cure
to my lapses of continuity
Every part of me
has taken a separate direction.
I awake in the night
alone and empty.

There is nothing more alone
than to wake in the middle of the night
no one to reach out for
no comfort to find.

I am afraid that I will wake
and there will be
nothing left of me.
A collection of clutter
or a speck in your eye
marooned
an after thought.
Reflections that find me
so un-groomed.
Little squares of reason
tiles on the floor.
Ushered in are spokesmen
to declare
part of what I already know.
On every corner
there is sadness
we all know.
In every person
on every occasion
a dimmer glow.
Should it trivialize my ache?
In all my dreams
I never imagined
me...
without you.

28th April♥

You are too perfect to be mine,and im not good enough for you either.. I aint perfect,but i can amazes you..Give me a chance,i shall bring you happiness and the love that you never felt before..I swear upon my God and every Gods that exist,my love for you is purely true,that can never ever go away..I shall risk my life and soul to bet in this very complicated yet beautiful relation that we had..And i hope i could spend my life with you♥

26th April♥

Well recently i found someone quite special,and i falled for her..She told me that she likes me,but she wanna stay single..Cause her previous ex hurt her and fooled her..So she dont believe guys now..I wanna make a change about that..I will make her believe that not every guys are like that..Im gonna show her that im different =) But for now,imma keep everything to myself.. Loving her silently♥

Goodbye My Lover♥

Goodbye My Lover♥

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.