Who's that girl?♥

Recently i met someone.. quite unique,quite special in lots a way.. She's funny,outgoin,cheerful,DDY xD, and lots more..haha xD.. I kinda felt some chemistry between us.. Its like some connection.. Its kinda hard to describe.. Well who know's? maybe God wanted me to meet her? haha.. I hope so? heees.. Well hopefully i get to meet her soon,then we shall know in the future whether she's the right one or what.. Dont wanna put too much hope on it.. Cause im scared.. Anyways im happy =) hees God Bless♥

Nigel Lee Soon Phin♥

Its kinda harsh for me cause my Blood Brother went to china yesterday.. He's goin there for quite a long time.. till end of this year maybe.. We had a farewell for him the day before he went off.. Im really sad cause he had leave us.. We spend almost everytime together.. We had our up's and down's together.. He was the best brother that i ever had and will have.. He always was the first bro to help me when im in trouble.. I hope he's okay there.. Hope he will take good care of himself.. Hopefully he will come back soon.. Take care Bro Nigel.. Take care.. I love you bro.. thanks for everything.. Cheers =) God Bless You.. Blood Brothers Forever♥

Im done with her xD

Good news..after talking to her face to face yesterday..I felt something different about her..and the feeling started to go off.. haha.. im happy with it.. Why should i suffer for the person who does't care.. right? totally.. Well she's not that perfect after all.. Thanks God for giving me a new life.. and im glad for everything God gave me.. God know whats best for me.. She's totally outta my life.. wooohooo .. Newborn Cheedi/Rashidi.. hees.. God Bless♥

Life is simple♥

Well life is simple.. If we win,we win.. If we lose,we lose.. thats all.. Dont need to add bullshit into it to make it complicated.. As for you, If you are not mine, then you are not.. You are outta my life.. Im gonna get rid of you from my mind.. I will wait till the right one comes.. =)

Me Without You♥

In all my dreams
I never imagined me without you.
I wandered through my life
and I would always see you.
I counted on your timing
your smile
you caught my soul
and found me off guard.
Must you still lean on my soul?
. Pull my insides
'til I lose all control?
and then...
take what becomes a prize to me
and leave me so alone?

Such an expense I paid
finding me without you.
I am off balance
I can hardly breath.
I never included the outcome
of your leaving...
leaving me without you.
I am a broken container.
I bare no excuse.
I cannot stand on my feet
nor hide my despair.
I am the tear in my own eye.
nowhere to start again
no step to begin.
The smell of emptiness
is a smell I cannot bare
a room so vacant.
I loath myself
that I should fall apart so.
As if you were the only person
to verify my breathing
the only cure
to my lapses of continuity
Every part of me
has taken a separate direction.
I awake in the night
alone and empty.

There is nothing more alone
than to wake in the middle of the night
no one to reach out for
no comfort to find.

I am afraid that I will wake
and there will be
nothing left of me.
A collection of clutter
or a speck in your eye
marooned
an after thought.
Reflections that find me
so un-groomed.
Little squares of reason
tiles on the floor.
Ushered in are spokesmen
to declare
part of what I already know.
On every corner
there is sadness
we all know.
In every person
on every occasion
a dimmer glow.
Should it trivialize my ache?
In all my dreams
I never imagined
me...
without you.