No Fag No Life !!!

I Wish I Was Death*

Im lonely and moody..Why everything in my life is goin the wrong way.. Everything in my life is a problem that cant be solve.. I really dont know what i should do now or in the future.. I wanna fag and drink the hell out of me lo.. haiz.. i wish i was death.. I guess i did too many sins in my past life,now the god is punishing me for not being with the person i love and care the most,always lack of cash,lazy,suck at studies,problems with my family and every freaking thing that is goin on in my life.. My heart is broken and it will be broken forever.. *Rip Cheedi*

I really dunno what is she thinking..Why she always get angry about what im saying and what im doin? why everything she thinks is only about her,she dont care how i felt or what im thinking .. i really cant take it anymore lo .. every time i chat with her,she sure angry about something,i tried and tried to tham her,make her happy back,but non of it works,its just getting worst and worst.. Maybe im really not the one for you..im sick of sabar and tahan.. it makes me sad and moody lo.. haiz.. im sorry for all the anger i cause to you.. please forgive me ... goodbye.. take good care of yourself ..

Well last saturday i went to barroom because of my friends birthday..I met a girl there.. We chit chat,talk funny things,do crazy stuff,and got drunk.. She got drunk first la.. haha xD .. Then after that few of my friends follow me home to overnight.. Then i asked my friends fer her number.. So i called her that night around 4 something i guess,At first i just tot wanna disturb her from sleeping,cuz she's so drunk but when we started chating,we got along pretty quickly.. So the next day we also chat and chat and chat,then the next day also chat and chat and chat.. I knew her for 5 days now,i felt we had a special bond,she's like very special to me,she made me forget the past and look in the future.. She made me totally forgot about her! Maybe she's the one im looking for so long? I really dont know but i really hope so.. Im sick and tired of getting hurt and left alone,i wanna get rid of that feeling forever.. I really hope that we will have a good future together.. God bless me.. lolz

I tried everything to forget about her and let her go,but everything i do,doing or did are all useless..She pops out my mind every single day,I dream about her every time i sleep,Its getting harder and harder for me to live my life..I want to go away from here,go as far as i can,just to forget about her..Since the day i fall for her,i knew we had no future but i insisted to go on,because i really love her..i really do.. haizz

Its the weekends again.. just finished viewing her facebook and blog.. She's hurt,and i wonder who she almost loved.. That must be a very lucky guy.. I wanted to text her and ask her whether she's okay anot,but i scared she dont like.. Im worried about her,i dont want to see her sad or hurt.. I want to be by her side,no matter what happen still care about her,cheer her up,bring her laughter back.. But she dont wanna talk or reply my text, haizz ..

Well its the weekends again,cant think of anything better to do..Life is so darn boring..Countdown 8 days to the jpj test..Haven pratice driving for a week now..haha xD scared to fail la.. lolz .. hmm.. still cant get over her..She's always on my mind..well time is everything,maybe i need more time to let her go.. Hopefully i can let her go as soon as possible,suffering right here.. sobb

1st of August

Its august already,time passed so fast..Just like a blink of an eye its already summer.. Haha xD Have many plans in this month,many things have to be done..So have to be more hardworking dy.. Lols .. Gonna go for the jpj test on the 17th to get my P license for car,Gosh ! cant wait la .. haha xD
Im targeting before the holidays i will get my license,so wish me luck.. hehs .. Me and my bro's are planing to go genting again during the coming holidays.. Then the trial exam of SPM gonna be goin on after the holidays .. Just really cant wait till end of the month,so many things are goin on .. hahs xD